a cave in afghanistan: January 2010

Sunday, January 31, 2010

status updates for today

02:46 Ken Wk strangely, really does like to use his fingers very much.. bit.ly/boPYf7 #
14:10 Ken Wk finally wakes up after 12 hours... bit.ly/a1kxtj #

yes it was due to laziness that i decided to have my daily updates from facebook to twitter and be transmitted via twitter to blogger. and of course, the inner geek certainly gave that push to find the way to make this happen. it also serves as an archive of my daily activities as well.

nevertheless, this is a rare moment in which i decided to actually type something up in here. a "limited edition" posting if you will. if you are reading this, then thank you for your support. as people who check up on me in facebook won't be reading this. nothing much here, just some ranting. i'd count 2 people i'm aware of to catch this post before it hits past the front page of my blog into the archives. either that, or none at all.

it is now 2010, and my birthday had just past a fortnight ago. another turning point was that i got married last month with rachel too. 28 years has passed by and i've been working at the current company for close to 4 years in march. having gone to a couple of interviews lately, i must admit i'm ready to move on to other job openings. the people i've been working with are getting... difficult to work with. maybe it's also due to the fact i've been feeling jaded about my job scope and my remuneration package. i'm lucky to have found a few close colleagues to rant my work to, probably due to our similar age group and personality. i'm known to being a "social butterfly" in the office anyway.

a nagging pain aside from work though, is that my new wife has been tied up with her online game. no worries, i'm 99% sure she'd not be reading this post for a very long time to come. it's called Aion Online and she's almost hitting the max level (49 of 50) soon. and then she'll have to max out on level 50. by march, the game will be releasing the expansion, which means she'll be able to continue upwards from level 50. i'm feeling very neglected. granted, she's always beside me in our room. but she's in her game world nevertheless. and when she's doing battle in dungeons, it's a horror for me to interrupt her. if you are reading this, maybe you can share with me what (constructive ideas) can be done in my situation. i've voiced out to her on several occasions on my concerns, and i suppose there have been slight improvements, but i hope to see more. what do married couples do in their spare time? i understand she wants "space to breath" so i'm not surprised if i'm the one being too needy.

which leads me to keeping myself occupied with activities i find: papercraft. i've been busy lately, doing craft art to do. my mantra i go around telling people: "google, print, slice & glue". i have a facebook album here (if you haven't already seen it). i've been escalating from small projects to more complicated ones, such as the bobbing head tiger, a 3-page yoshi instead of the usual 1-2page pieces, and now my latest work in progress, a 12-page gundam for my colleague.

what is my goal in life now? where do i see myself in 5 years? interviewers have been asking me similar questions and frankly these days i'm not very sure about my answer. can we truly be able to see where we will be in 5 years? i just don't want to have wishful thinking expecting a rosy picture in life. there are too many unexpected turns that could possibly happen...

dear... if you are reading this, i hope you can realise that, feelings is immaterial, and though buying gifts is an expression of how you feel, owning and possessing new items won't give you as much happiness as you'd hope it would. your love for bags... have added a lot to your collection. but yet, you are still unhappy about the things in life. even if they do bring you joy it'd be just for a fleeting moment. and then there's the dent in the pocket with each purchase...

it's evident i'm not feeling happy. i'm glad you've showed improvement these past weeks and i hope to see more to come. i also hope i'd find a new job that pays better, even if the job scope is equally shitty. i hope the future - our future - is promising for at least the next 5 years. i'll try to keep my chin up, but yes, i've always been a slight emo since much younger. the arrogance and aggressiveness is just a facet. the sarcasm suppresses the somewhat manic-depressive side of me. i enjoy attention, hopefully from you mostly. no matter what happens, you're always my number one...

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