Thursday, March 31, 2005

so many~

my mind is currently flooded with so many things that i wish to do. and some others that i *have* to do. i'll just have a mental diarrhoea and dump everything here for now! don't ask me why but i'm feeling rather upbeat and happy at the moment. don't spoil it for me! haha... i got this good feeling vibe going around me now. it's a pity i'm going to bed already.
  • do homework for database assignment *have to*
  • write 750 word essay for network planning subject *have to*
  • read up for monday lab check for process management *better do*
  • interface design for project *got until end of the week*
  • seminar topic read-up for network planning *bah*
now for the stuff i want to do!
  • flash animations (i've got 3 scripts written down already!)
  • creative designs in photoshop (graphic manipulations are fun!!!)
  • sketch things around me on pencil and paper
  • comic strip of my bear and tarepanda
  • upgrade my blog picture gallery
  • redesign my blog!
  • design new decal for my Lancer at home!
  • all THAT to contribute to my teensy portfolio!
yes i know i'm greedy but i can't help it. i've got too much things i wish to do!
-insert sinister laugh here-
-cue thunder sound-

something was done at last

ah yes i finally got some work done today. it was a pity though. i spent a good half a day trying to solve one question. and at long last i finished that one portion of the assignment. feel so drained out now. that problematic problem of a question took the mickey out of me for today.

dinner was japanese curry with rice, and chicken, carrots and mushrooms in the curry. yummy. actually i told jason, i probably wouldn't have a craving for japanese curry for a while after i return to singapore. as would western food.

i think i blogged too much last night. having too much things on my mind still. have a billion things i wish to do. oh alright not a billion, but quite a few handful.

quix·ot·ic (kwk-stk) also quix·ot·i·cal (--kl)
adj.
  1. Caught up in the romance of noble deeds and the pursuit of unreachable goals; idealistic without regard to practicality.
  2. Capricious; impulsive: “At worst his scruples must have been quixotic, not malicious” (Louis Auchincloss).
that's roughly how i'm feeling right about now. for the past few days now. i'm beginning to wonder if there will ever be a time for me to do stuff i had always wanted to do.

*you are always on my mind*

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

i just remembered

i had a friend in secondary school. his name was cheng wan. he passed away before i graduated from 'O' Levels. the conversation with jason somehow led to mentioning him.

we initially had wanted to start our own web design company at that age. with another lady older than us too. we just started, when he had some complications in his health. he was hospitalised and subsequently transferred to ICU at Gleneagles. i visited him few times and eventually his family decided it is best for him to be taken off life support. so he passed away and our little plan fell through.

i'm guessing that had he been alive and well, i'd probably had a good headstart in life as a web designer, followed by what comes next.

i yearn to work. to collect experience in the tangible form of a portfolio.

my mind is slightly appeased for now... somehow

just told my dad(gee the wonders of technology) and brother about my intention. daddy says as long i happy... brother's opinion is my stopping now means i'll only have a basic degree. less competitive than honors degree(he has at least a second upper honors[read: not first class] degree) and he got bypassed so i would be at an even greater disadvantage.

so here's the current battle plan. i'll just KIV all alternatives. but the basic motion would be something like this. i study this degree until end of this year. head back home and try to start working. at the same time take up some part time masters course with NTU and then be working and studying at the same time. i haven't queried NTU yet. but i'm guessing(from hearsay) that the part time course takes around 3yrs. so in the meantime i'll be disadvantaged. but 3yrs after that i can start feeling better.

why NTU? i'll be expecting comments from shan le... cos NUS part time course requirements include 2years work experience. which i have zilch. talking about work experience, one of my friend commented that, with a masters degree, people may not want to hire someone who is "overqualified" for the job. so i probably should just work then get the paper. or i could even get the paper first and keep it. then when the need arises in a job, just flash it out with a pleasant smile. that's plain cunning. hehe...

masters or none?

i'm pondering whether to take masters. taking it would mean another year to study in australia. or equivalent in singapore(but singapore universities rather prefer applicants with minimum 2years' job experience)... it would also means spending more money from my parents which isn't exactly cheap(i feel the heartpain too, being miserly and all)... and i'm eager to start working. earning my livelihood, getting pissed at work.

the consideration to go ahead with studying masters is mostly because of my parents. they didn't want me to regret not studying further. partly because of my brother. he was bypassed for a promotion because some rookie with better qualifications showed up. my parents don't want that happening to me. but my brother took Electronic Engineering.

there is also the question of necessity for such high qualifications. in this field of IT, unless a person is working for an MNC, personally i don't see much point of getting too many papers. call me a daydreamer but i certainly wouldn't want to be stuck at an office job working for others for long. i wish to be my own boss, at least having a say in the direction of the business. feeling a better sense of accomplishment. the risk will be there, but no pain no gain from my perspective.

let's just say i want to be greedy. and eventually, i hope to open my own cyber cafe. hosting websites in the backend server farm. plus web solutions development. then take a step even greedier. consider eCommerce and eBusiness!

pros of further study
  • advantage with promotions in corporate environment
  • better recognised qualifications
  • gain more knowledge before starting work
cons of further study
  • spend more $
  • slow to market
  • time spent studying
  • necessity in my field of knowledge
opinions anyone? i'm intending to tell my dad and see what he says. discussing it with him as soon as he comes online.

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

has it been this long?

i just realised. i'd been blogging for slightly more than a year already now. well not quite. to let everyone in on the joke, i actually started blogging in march on the 6th. on paper. yup. i wrote the diary in an old exercise book. eventually i got tired of writing.

but i still had so much to whine about, i decidedly registered with blogspot and made this blog. that was in july i think. and then i proceeded to laboriously type out every page i wrote. every day i had an entry on. and then i told everyone about my little ol' blog.

of course i did some cosmetic upgrades. but it didn't stray far from the simple layout it was meant to be. and stayed almost the same thus far.

to think i made the dream blog. that was fun too. i used to type them out in notepad as text files. so i can come back to them should have a sensation of deja vu. now i can put them in here as well.

this blog started primarily because of my private emotions. but come to think about it there's still plenty of emotions that really should be left unsaid. i haven't been in contact with her for more than 10 months already. not that i bother what she's up to nowadays, i think many out there don't agree with some things she does. but i think she has her own reasons so we should leave it at that.

*this has been a flashback of the birth of this blog*

grocery day~

well yeah nothing much about today. nothing productive. grocery shopping around town. jason brought me to a 2nd asian grocery store. then was to woolworths. i really should cut down on snacking... i bought quite some bits of junk food.

oh well main highlight for today was dinner. plain rice + fish + green curry chicken + onion fried egg. green curry chicken was nice... mmm... had coconut milk in it! then the fish, jason thought it too salty but i liked it just right. peppery taste was good too.

you might come across errors on my blog. but hopefully it's not too big a problem. let me know if you had an error and how i may recreate the error(aka what you did). i'm trying to modularise my blog codes. meaning, i'm taking the CSS stylesheet and JavaScript codes and putting them into an external file. how is this good? i can adjust the css and javascript for my blog without having to republish my blog pages everytime i do this! somewhat more convenient. just upload there, and reload here.

apparently i've been so unproductive these days i'm beginning to feel guilty about it. i probably should start doing some proper homework tomorrow. i better. @@"

*don't let go no matter what*

Monday, March 28, 2005

woke up somewhat earlier

having woke at noon, i typed the dream i just woke up from. it took me quite a while. i assure you it's quite a read. i'm rather in shock for the most part of the day.

and then i made lunch. yes lunch. i made scrambled eggs with 2 sausages, sat myself in front of the tv and began eating. nothing too interesting though. so i finished up and went back to my little screen on my bed.

did i mention that the daylight savings is off? it happened few days ago. didn't realise until my parents were asking me what time is it now. so now it is back to being 2hours ahead of SGP, rather than 3.

i cleaned up the house a little after lunch. emptied the trash, flamed several unsuspecting spiders in the yard, and cleaned up the cooking hob of any cooking oil stains.

after reading the news from channelnewsasia, i sort of took a liking to the bossa nova style of singing. i read about this girl from singapore who flew to japan. she has a debut album of which i had sampled and like. i must admit i am the occasional fool when it comes to music genres but i think i like this bossa nova style.

i started to head over limewire to look for similar styles of the genre to download. so far so good. :) and then i downloaded swift3d. i don't recall how one thing lead to the other. but i also got firefox. rather fun to be downloading new stuff everynow and then. and then cracking them. hehehe...

and as for jason, he's back. came back in time to make dinner. hehe. boy i sure can tell he looks whacked from the long drive home. glad he enjoyed himself nevertheless.

my cough's better already. coughing a lot lesser than 2 days ago. and don't continue reading this paragraph you you don't wish to be grossed out. in the afternoon today, i coughed out a small lump of phlegm. greenish. i coughed it into the sink. it clung on for dear life while i tried to wash it down the drain. took me a while to uncling it. eeuuh...

*you make my heart go POM POM TIAO*

Sunday, March 27, 2005

another day gone!

eek i was bedridden today(CHOY!) seated with laptop on well, erh lap. i was fooling around with my little page with dA and didn't do much else!!!

well ok so i was indoors whole day. but i tried to work out! did a bit of situps, pushups... erm that was it. i had macaroni w/ cheese for lunch! erh yes late lunch. i woke 12noon. XD then for dinner(which was around 10+pm) i baked this can of spaghetti with meatballs with mozarella cheese, and 2 sunny side ups i threw in the microwave, and a roll of garlic bread. ughh shouldn't have made the garlic bread. kinda full after that... oof...

and i finally showered after so many days. HAHAHAHA yes i didn't shower until today. never sweat mah!

so i spent my day as such. home alone and totally unproductive muahaha.

*thanks for the visit. XD*

Saturday, March 26, 2005

ken is going art-crazy

i'd been setting my homework aside for these past few days and basically trying to get my creativity levels up. i had always been more of a programmer than a designer. aka using my left brain more than my right. so i'm looking through online stuff to learn more and try to get creative on my own at the same time. seriously, afterall if i really want to be a web developer, surely i should have the best of both worlds right?

there is a fine line to balance, between logical thinking/programming and creativity. and i believe i'd always been self-admittedly, a jack of all trades but master of none. i know a little bit of every other thing, but not very in-depth views on any of them. the time has come, to venture deeper. one by one i wish to slowly explore each skill i have acquired. photoshop? i barely understand the tip of the iceberg. flash? i have not much clue about actionscripting. you get the idea. the intention is to have a graph chart of sorts, where the various columns are the skills, and i wish to bring them up a high level *eventually* bit by bit.

got myself a DeviantArt account and throwing my stuff there. now of course my works aren't all that fantastic, but my aim is to get comments from the people who might come across what i've done and give comments on them so i can improve upon it. yes that includes the drawing i made which jason commented on being an orang utan...

about today... i slept 6am, woke 12noon(to the ringing of the phone, of which there was nobody on the other end) and proceeded to read up tutorials for photoshop and stuff online. having some sort of diarrhoea earlier on(i'd attribute to the dry mee i ate previous night) then i'm still coughing quite badly. taking strepsils for it. and drowning myself with water(erm inside, not out) to soothe the agony. tummy's been making funny noises all day.

and to top it all off i'm actually alone today. when i slept at 6am, jason was just leaving for his camp thingy. he'll be back come monday evening(that's what he said) so that means i'll be alone for another night at least. *COUGH LOUDLY* it's not very nice. but it's dry. nothing phlegmy coming out(i shan't go into details). and i didn't have much appetite for the coughs and sniffles.

my parents were on webcam with me in the afternoon. i told them about me being sick and nobody around. then they started blah-ing about me not taking care of myself, a whole bunch of I-told-you-so's plus the usual nagging. that makes me feel ironic inside. on one hand i miss seeing them and everyone at home. on the other, them being able to nag at me even while i'm here makes me want to toss technology out the window. what else could i do but simply acknowledge their naggings and inane queries. oh yes i am so disrespectful aren't i? i shall try not to get too miffed at their showers of concern.

*i really love her very much*

Friday, March 25, 2005

are you a schizophrenic?

i have a lot of thoughts in my mind. it's like a busy central train station with multitudes of trains of thoughts going in and out at the same time. some trains just passing by, some trains just came to rest, some trains just departing from the station... it probably is happening as i speak type. just try to picture it as you would on Discovery Channel. the 3d model of a human brain with millions of signals bouncing all over with the voiceover in the background seemingly murmurring about the human brain and the knowledge we have about it, or lack thereof.

i can't really make much sense of most of the train of thoughts. some are like bullet trains from japan, some on the german railway zipping through europe. some are old choo choo steam trains for kiddy rides in pet zoos. so maybe i'll just try to rationalise about those choo choo trains since them seem easier to comprehend. but then again, nothing is for certain.

i do have lots of homework. that i know quite obviously. of the 4 subjects i'm having at least 3(the other is a "project") have work to do. i'm just procrastinating.

did i mention few days ago i saw a wild bunny rabbit on campus? i was on my way with jason to one of the blocks when i saw it hopping around. it apparently didn't belong to anyone(i doubt anyone would wish to let it roam around near the carpark/road) and it was all brown and hoppity. and then another day i saw a kookaburra in my backyard. didn't manage to snap a shot cos we were too slow to get the cameras out. it flew out of range of our cameras. it was at least 10 times the size of a mynah you'd see in singapore! fancy catching sight of wildlife around us just like that.

oh yes and i digressed... my homework i would wish to continue doing. but given the effect of holidays, i don't feel up to doing any. to be honest i've been propped up on my bed today whole day. i slept at 5am(jason probably was about to wake up in an hour's time or two) and woke 2pm. "you pig!" you exclaim. surely i did something productive today? i don't think i did. just been coughing away. oh yes i am having a bit of a sore throat. had it for a few days already. it is now developing into a wheezy kind of cough plus sniffles on the sides. i'm sucking on one of them strepsils lozenges for now. it was for "First sign of a cold"; the box had a label. i'm beginning to wonder if the lozenge was worsening my sore throat into something more severe.

there the other train left the station. i digressed again. my homework i'm just simply considering how to start, which to start on. but at the same time my other train is having a desire to get creative and do something fancy. like design a website for fun. to add to my own portfolio. or to draw something amazing and "WOW". yup that's the train on the next platform. and then of course i'm thinking if i should get some hobby like take up surfing/diving course etc. but those cost money! ooh another is about making new friends. "surely you jest?" i kid you not, to be honest i'm anti social at times and prefer to get stuck at home mulling. but i'm socially inept at times. some people just label that as being lame.

there was once i went to outward bound singapore, for a 5 day course. we went kayaking in open water and stay overnight at a little island. we had some sort of informal peer review and eventually the comments came to my turn. and almost everyone had the same idea. i should do away with the lame jokes and be myself. but i AM being myself telling lame jokes right? so they say i was trying too hard to be the funny guy and i simply nod my head. maybe they're right. i'd always admitted to being lame.

oh and there i digressed once again. right. so by now you lot have probably lost all respect you ever had for me(gee, :( you mean you didn't even had an ounce of it?) and come to terms with the fact i'm not a fantastic person. well yeah who is ever perfect right? i used to tell everyone(well at least a handful) that
"if a person is perfect, that person is not human"
and yes you can go ahead and quote me on that. although i do believe i heard that from elsewhere, correct me if i'm wrong but don't sue me for plagiarism due to ignorance k? there are times that i feel down, feel up, feel in between, and all sorts of emotions humans experience in life. ah heck i suppose the biorhythm is on the downslide for now. or it's just tuned itself to another channel and getting plenty of distortion.

uh... back to my trains. i can't figure out some of them. some things are simply bogging down my mind. not necessarily unimportant per se, just bogging down due to various factors of which i can't properly state down due to my incompetence.

i'd attribute this to a disorder which i believe everyone in singapore has. the DISorder seems so commonplace it almost seems in order. so i guess by de facto that i'm normal actually.

i could withdraw from civilisation and "get away from it all". but that would just defeat the purpose of coming down under wouldn't it? i have occasionally come to conclusions that i'm in reality a bad person. however i am constantly reminded by my inner self that 人之过,性本善, and i feel better about myself after that.

*i feel like i'm causing turmoil on a lot of people including myself*

more rambling

long long time ago on a desktop far far away, a paper and pen found each other and were trying to start a story. they were discussing how to start writing, what should they write about.

the paper asked the pen "are you filled with blue ink?"

"yes i am, " replied the pen. and the pen started to write a bit. out came green ink one the words! "but i thought you said you were blue ink!" exclaimed the paper. "i forgot what ink i had" the pen apologised. the paper was miffed, but they carried on drafting the story out anyway. this happened another 2 or 3 times, and surprisingly, the blue ink did come out, but not everytime.

"are you sure you never wrote on other paper before?" the paper queried. the pen denied such allegations, to which the paper took words of the pen for it and they tried to carry on writing. but alas, the ink came out of another colour once again, instead of blue. "how could you do this to me!" cried the paper.

"i might have written on another paper before" confessed the pen. "but i thought you said..." the paper regrettedly asked. "i might have forgotten" the pen interrupted.

by then, the paper was already very unhappy with the whole situation. dissatisfied, the paper decided not to collaborate with the pen on writing a story. the pen, left unused, had dried up of ink and left in a corner of the desk. other hopeful pens will take its place while the life of this pen has been exhausted.

- the end -

Thursday, March 24, 2005

too lazy to type any title

i screwed myself up at 1030 odd today. meeting in uni with project group at half past noon.

us 2 guys then went crown st mall for a bit of walking around. i wanted to look for a serial/parallel port to usb adapter/converter. apparently no such thing exists. for the other way around yes, but not TO usb. unfortunately.

then to woolworths and bought abit of things. i got strepsils. yes i'm having a sore throat. well i HAD the sore throat. now i'm starting to cough. -kak-

vodaphone has this thing. i bought a $49 top up for my prepaid mobile. it provides me $230 worth of credits which i can use for calls and such. no "free" sms per se, but it's included in the $230. but i can only use $20 of the $230 for IDD. what the? so after that it costs even more i guess.

too lazy to type any title

i screwed myself up at 1030 odd today. meeting in uni with project group at half past noon.

us 2 guys then went crown st mall for a bit of walking around. i wanted to look for a serial/parallel port to usb adapter/converter. apparently no such thing exists. for the other way around yes, but not TO usb. unfortunately.

then to woolworths and bought abit of things. i got strepsils. yes i'm having a sore throat. well i HAD the sore throat. now i'm starting to cough. -kak-

vodaphone has this thing. i bought a $49 top up for my prepaid mobile. it provides me $230 worth of credits which i can use for calls and such. no "free" sms per se, but it's included in the $230. but i can only use $20 of the $230 for IDD. what the? so after that it costs even more i guess. odd plan. catch is i have to use it within the next 30 days after i "activated" this top-up.

oh and i just found out about msagents and was playing around with them on my mIRC. it's cute and wacky. i downloaded all sorts of "Agents" to use. now i've got this lady in red bustier top and leather pants on my desktop reading whatever comes out of the main channels i'm in. hehe

once again i didn't do homework. i think i killed a few spiders today. one in particular was a spider roughly the side of erh... a G-Shock? it was on the tree in the backyard spinning a web. i think after i sprayed it with spider control, it was acting like it took laxative and started furiously spinning out threads like lao sai. i think it bailed out of the tree.

and i flamed its spent web. hohoho.

i shall try not to procrastinate tomorrow.

*winter coming as the wind blows, the tree leaves. chilling nights abound, all is silent. no soul in sight, the forest turns lifeless*

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

the rain never seems to cease

it stopped a while and rained again.
walked to uni in the rain once more.
2 boring lectures i dozed off in.
more lazing at home until dinner.
considering horseback riding or scuba diving courses.
been doing a bit of assignment until now.
my brother reports that my bedroom pc is dying as well.
i'm feeling sedated.
been lying here since afternoon with occasional trips to the bathroom.
feel bedridden.
HAHAHA.
yes i'm feeling sedated.
no lessons from tomorrow onwards till the monday after the next.
still searching for that spark of creativity.

*i'll do my best for the future*

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

drenched

i was drenched in the rain!~ went to school and back by foot and in the RAIN. freezing my hands and feet off out there. i wore berms and sandals. XD yah gives the numbing sensation. i wore that jacket my family gave me with its hood. jason was with me, carrying a rather big umbrella. my berms were half drenched and half dry when we reached the lecture theatre... oh well at least my feet got to dry out while we're in the lab. and then we trudged back home in the rain...

we went the woolworths and bought a few items for jason to bake bread and other stuff with. and some other blahblah. and then my daddy who misses me found me on msn after we came home. he was asking my brother for help... even though my mum told him i'm offline and not around he insists its impossible! and he panics... hehehe so cute. here's a picture of him on msn!
Daddy on webcam with me!
hi daddy!(no my family doesn't read this)

on another note, i was once again not doing any proper work. yes i feel this is getting a bit routine but i'm trying to break out of it. and for today, i shall share here, the creations i learnt from online tutorials. definitely needs work, but for starters, they're here for me to learn from.

Ken up in flames
nothing much, just learning to add flame designs to my name. for starters i must say it was pretty easy to replicate.

Faraway Planet with star dusted background
i followed the tutorials from Greg Martin, who is a student. and he has a Gallery that teaches these stuff. pretty neat huh...

Monday, March 21, 2005

more slacking! whee~

went school, had lessons, came home.

today is a day when i did things i never really do before...

first activity:
i went to the backyard and laid out a towel. i meditated for half an hour in the sun... with my eyes closed, sitting upright. whoah...

second activity:
i took a mechanical pencil(uh i don't have a proper regular pencil, and i can't bear to use the shitty one) and started drawing. i drew Ms Diana Zubiri, April Calendar girl on my FHM calendar. this is how she looks.

Sketch of Diana Zubiri

yah my first time doing it. my first draft jason thought i drew an ORANG UTAN dammit! haha... so i made changes. but i'm sure it can be improved upon. i'll draw the calendar girls monthly and see how things goes. :O

third activity:
a new desktop wallpaper for my laptop! i took pains to design this. it's silly and lame but i like it. it's so me. XD

My new desktop: Shitworks!

check out the shit sign too...

Warning: Shit in progress

and then i made a whole bunch of icons out of it too! the radioactive for My Computer, biohazard for Network Places, fire for My Documents, Poison for Recycle Bin(hence red when full), and a little roach for a cursor! awww...

Icons to go with my theme

it is very apparent that i had not been doing any proper homework as above. so yes i'm guilty of more procrastination today. HAHAHA... =x

*jia you jia you!*

Sunday, March 20, 2005

really slacking

so i'm feeling lazy and woke up at 2pm. surfing around and bumming around online the whole day. i've been poring through this clientcopia site that jason recommended. we've been reading it since last week now. and it's still amusing. XD

i'll start on my homeworks tomorrow.

in the meantime... does anybody have a clue how i can squeeze more creativity juices from my cranium? i'd never been much of a designer and would appreciate it if i can find a source of inspiration on that. i suppose i'm too much of a technical/logical person. but that's not good enough... surely i can dish up something fancy for the web right? or not...

Baby for all my life,
don't you know that it's true,
I'm living to love you,
so Baby don't think twice,
if you feel what I feel,
trust your heart and do what I do,
'cause I'm living to love you,
I'm living to love you.


i think i've been having dreams lately. but i can't remember them when i wake up.

*i wish this isn't a dream and i won't wake up from it*

Saturday, March 19, 2005

*poot*

i woke up in the afternoon today.
i made a whole bottle full of pancake mix today.
i made nice near-circular pancakes today.
i went to the supermarket and spent nearly $80 for my part of the groceries today.
i went to the fish market at the pier but it was closed today.
i went home and ate up all the remaining pancake today.
i only ate pancakes today.
i farted a lot today.
i heard my brother is jealous/envious of me today.
i heard my parents wishes to see me almost everyday today.
i taught my parents how to use msn messenger (again) today.

i didn't help with laundry today.
i didn't help with baking the chocolate fudge cake today.
i didn't do any homework today.
i didn't shower today.
i didn't have a proper meal today.
i didn't pay for the groceries today.

i don't feel too happy today.

i feel weak and helpless today.


i don't feel my heart beating today.



i have been spacing out today.




i have a lot of spaces to spare for spacing out today.




i behave weirdly today.

some joke i find funny

i jus kope this joke from somebody's blog

An old Arab lives close to New York City for more than 40 years. He would love to plant potatoes in his garden, but he is alone, old and weak.His son is in college in Paris, so the old man sends him an e-mail.

He explains the problem: "Beloved son, I am very sad, because I can't plant potatoes in my garden. I am sure, if only you were here; you'd help me and dug up the garden for me.
Love, your father."

The following day, the old man receives a response e-mail from his son: "Beloved father, please don't touch the garden. It's there that I have hidden 'the THING'.
Love, Ahmed".

At 4pm the US Army, the Marines, the FBI, the CIA and the Rangers visit the house of the old man, take the whole garden apart, search every inch, but can't find anything. Disappointed they leave the house.

Another day later, the old man receives another e-mail from his son. "Beloved father, I hope the garden is dug up by now and you can plant your potatoes. That's all I could do for you from here.
Love, Ahmed."

a vicious cycle

i shall type things that don't make sense in this post. don't bother reading if you want to make sense out of it. hahahaha.

sky dark dark got cloud gather. no air in air cannot breath. butterfly cannot fly turn to butter and plat on ground. horsie run and flatten buttered butterfly. horsie tio langa by herd of rhino become no horse run. rhino kena flesh eating worm makan its brain for home and die. wormy copulate until explode. meerkat hear wormy explosion run and hide. cobra chua tio and eat meerkat. mongoose buay song so jiak zhua. mongoose lan lan cos tio stampede by blur blur cow. cow eat grass until sian so fart methane. fart tio lightning strike become big fire. big fire cause chemical reaction in sky. sky dark dark become cloud.

Friday, March 18, 2005

i'm feeling all warm and fuzzy inside out!

main lesson of today, i called the hot water specialist to come and take a look at our gas powered water heater. he came, he saw, he twiddled with that thing, he taught me how to start the fire(it's called a pilot flame), he got paid his $60, and he left. easy money i tell you! no choice. because i personally wasn't experience enough to follow the instructions on the equipment. so i wasn't doing it right.

but anyway so now we have hot water for shower again at long last. and then my brain started moving and decided i should start up the central heating system too! and so i did. warm water, climate control, isn't that sweet?

the most satisfying thing i'd done today other than the discovery of fire(quite literally), was that i made a short instruction booklet thingy for my parents. they aren't exactly english educated, let alone computer literate. so i typed some sort of a instruction manual for them in chinese. complete with icons and step-by-step directions. only thing is to get it printed out by my brother.

*my patience is being tested*

Thursday, March 17, 2005

relief?

for fast acting relief, pls take muffypoo's pain killers. so effective, you won't realise that the deadline was over until you missed it!

today is a damn cold day. it was raining and the winds were blowing.

i got the doc printed out and... i tried at least 5 times to staple those 10 pages together! uh cover page, content page, abstract and the main stuff. that's 10 pages. i gave up and decided to staple front half and back half, then staple them in the middle. luckily i discovered a problem. i nearly stapled all the pages upside down from the cover page! fortunately, save for the crumpled corners, i got the pages right side up and stapled properly.

lunch was spaghetti with meatballs. or was it meatballs with spaghetti. they were of equal portions so i guess it doesn't matter. only concern was it's nice. and the potato casserole jason made for dinner was nice too! and it's the first time he'd done it! remarkable!

anyway, i'm slacking for tonight. it's jason's turn to slog. but i think he's got more time to spare than i did.

those who play gunbound, please be informed that 24th of march till 27th, there's an event for easter. u'll get 2 free items simply by looking for it in the avatar section! enjoy. :)

i'm going to bed with tare and ahbear. feeling childish tonight. haa... so nice to have tare to cuddle. i miss my gorilla too! and my bed! XD

i'll probably try to come up with a user manual for my parents. teach them how to get online to chat with me. hehehe...

*good luck*

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

*roar like a mighty lion roar!*

*WARNING: LONG RANTING POST. read at your discretion.*

yah i'm mad. congratulate me quick! i jus finished typing the bloody essay and i'm so relieved i managed to finish it at long last... zzz it's 2am and i'm gonna go sleep. printing will be done when day breaks. when i wake up that is.

looking in hindsight, the essay wasn't an artifact of one and a half day's worth of work. i had made trips to the library on two separate days prior to my commencement of any actual typing. indeed i procrastinated working on this due to the previous deadline. but i was still somewhat on the ball and read the few references i had borrowed occasionally to gain some insight. what is more was i managed to sieve out various websites (i had a little assistance from someone too) that relate to the topics of discussion. in the end, i came up to 1700 over words; not including the "References" section. so i guess i am satisfied at ranting at long in the essay. i suppose it is somewhat of an overkill because the upper threshold was meant to be at 10% of 1500 meaning a max of 1650 words. talk about over achieving! XD

i'm just in a mad mood now. partly overjoyed at the fact i'm done with yet another assignment, and in the other part, crossing my fingers in hope that it won't score a C or worse. nobody wants to sound incoherent in their words so i certainly i didn't.

so yay! that being put aside for now, i can breath out momentarily. there will still be second waves of assignment and such. got to hold my breath and don't sink and drown! i'm weird. just feeling upbeat about things.

i want to rant. so i shall.

not that i understand it, but i believe every issue should be treated objectively. fair assessments should be made on a matter and have the pros and cons weighed in perspective. be it something that you would rather have over something that is good for you, when the points are listed out it would be easier to make a judgment. you can go around polling for opinions. but of course the final decision lies with you. and although sometimes the judgment call can be a painful process, the eventuality will be a much more pleasant one for the decision maker.

i love to rationalise things. some say you really shouldn't rationalise matters of the heart. but then again why can it not? given that advantages and disadvantages can be listed down in comparison, be it tangible(money, possessions, living quarters) or intangible(popularity, character, affection, attitude), would it not make the better option more visible? this would reduce a lot of migraines and deliberations. it all boils down to the necessity of doing homework before making a final decision.

i think i've probably lost my train of thought by now. i'm in a way doing cooling down exercise for my fingers. typing until my brain juices run dry. for the sake of obvious, i just completed typing an essay 200+ words in excess of the 1500 i was required to do.

so my mind is once again lost to its own mindless banter. hrmm isn't that oxymoronic... a mind with a mindless banter. ok so i'm rubbishing again... i have to admit it. i love to type!

so what if happy events and sad events happen? they happen all the time around us. they can happen at the same time too! so by logic of emotion if both happen at the same time u are suppose to feel sad if the happy event is not "happy" enough. and something like that. people expect us to react the way THEY would behave. and from there comes the sheep instincts. that, or some people just respond intuitively or just not wishing to be looked upon as "different" from their peers.

let's see if you can follow my train of thought. it's getting lost in the amazon of my neural maze. many processes in life are pretty much similar. i just went to attend a lecture in Software Process Management. from what was presented, i gather everything is roughly the same idea. from large to small. it's something called evolution. but that's the general idea. what evolution does is in abstract terms,
  • taking a small set of requirements and needs and determining what exactly is the problem to be defined(fish needs to breathe underwater, for example)
  • generate options to which the requirements may be fulfilled (evolving different types of breathing facilities? fish breathing via skin, gills, obtaining different types of respiratory elements...)
  • construct the required items... a new breed is born!
  • adapt to the environment and see if the requirements work.
  • test somemore and see if there're better ways...

from there the iteration restarts itself. thus the fish can evolve in various stages to what it is now by gradual stages of evolution. i guess you could apply the same to problem solving, even in daily life. that's how people learn. that's how the internet grew. that's how Java got developed. people learn from mistakes and develop better ideas from there. sometimes, it may not even be mistakes. sometimes people may just think... "oh this existing set of functions do not fulfil what i want" and they get around to coming up with better tools with which to serve their needs.

you are probably scratching your head by now. or kudos to you if you skipped that whole bunch of text completely. i'm just once again pouring out my brain in a messy stone skipping game in my head.

your opinions are valuable. please let me know what you think of me even if it will hurt. just come straight up to me and shout "you suck!" if that's your cup of tea even! of course i'll appreciate some bits of explanations but at least you are being truthful about me to me. this is similar to the iteration process with which i can improve myself upon!

*ooh that verbal diarrhoea felt great!*

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

no proper blog today

yah busy doing assignment now. reading up and stuff. supposedly the only thing existent in my head now is how to settle the assignment.

oh but interestingly i received an email from Qantas, the airline company from Australia. uh for some reason which i have forgotten, i subscribed to their newsletter thingy. and they sent me an email i believe a lot of people seemed to sound interested in. so i'll just paste it here since i've got nothing else better to type about. i think they did this in response to SIA's new offer for S$98 air tickets. now Qantas came up with a S$98 return ticket to Perth, and back to singapore. heh... of course there are some conditions.

i shall post the email in its entirety...

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anyway... i've been typing up the essay and i'm looking up references here and there on how to note down references to sources in the bibliography and such. so if anybody has any points that you think i should think of please let me know. my brain is gaining a whole load of new information within these past few days... eek. and i think i'm growing a belly! well yes it's true. jason goes for jogs, tries asking me to go along, and i decline. maybe one day i'll join him. one day. when i'm done with this bloody essay.

oops?

yah i din blog yesterday. so i'll just do it earlier today.

was basically procrastinating on my assignment due on thurs last night and was setting up my other laptop to run winxp and stuff. and i was fiddling abit of my irc script. fat lot of good that would do...

yes i'm worried about the assignment. primarily because i've got not much clue on how to get it started. lets see the topic. who knows, i might end up doing the whole essay on my blog hahaha...

Standards are an extremely important issue for the telecommunications
industry, in order to demonstrate your understanding of the nature and
importance of standards, discuss the following issues.
  • Discuss the history of standards and controlling international standards
    bodies, including a synopsis on the RFC ( Request for Comment) methods for
    moving the standard forward via the RFC process.
  • Discuss how standards affect strategic planning.

hehe... comments anyone? i am going to die so badly *whine* and i have to make references to books and this and that! -sob- i don't think most people will be interested in the next bunch of rantings. so you can skip the next paragraph unless you wish to take a bit of history lesson.

i only found out that the RFC method came about when the Network Working Group aka NWG was formed in 1969 to keep in check the stability of the communication protocols. this guy Steve Crocker took the minutes for their first meeting. the document was subsequently distributed as a Request For Comments. the title was phrased in that docile way to indicate it not being authoritative and final. blahblahblah... this came from a few books i borrowed.

argh back to work...

*PANIC STATIONS!!!*

Sunday, March 13, 2005

the day of lightheadedness!

yay today cut hair! and the chinese barber residing in the Wan Long supermarket (aka oriental mart) costs a third of the price charged by the hair salon in uni campus sia! yay means save money... and my hair is so much shorter today i'm happier too! kekeke... personally i don't like sideburns so this is way comfortable for me. and the hairstyle ain't too bad either. i'm pretty sure we'd be heading back there in future.

today was supposed to be a hot day, but apparently stepping into Woolworths can make a person such as me shiver at the freezer section. it's cold throughout indeed. and this time round however, we have decided to restrict our shopping madness to the size of a basket instead of a shopping cart. so we certainly spent slightly less than if we were given a cart. and save a bit more cash too haha...

well ok jason baked muffins and i helped him a teensy bit. and otherwise i'd spent the whole day not doing much. fiddling with my laptops. sadly, my ibm laptop's been giving me a lot of hiccups so i needed to resolve this before it runs amok. and the tuning certainly took a while.

gawd time flies. did i mention that it's already been a month since i came down under? yah guess i did... and miraculously i shall mention that monday aka tomorrow is going to be the birthday of
  • my dad!
  • shan too!

hahaha yes incidentally they have the same birthday. so, here's to shan.

  • happy birthday to u~
  • happy birthday to u~
  • happy birthday to hui shannnnnnnnnn~
  • happy birthday to u~~~
  • *cue confetti*

heh so that's the gist of today's post. i'm basically relieved of one assignment to be over soon, and worrying about the next, due on thursday.

i'll also drop in a joke i can't forget.

a university was having an exam for their physics students. in the exam hall,
right at the front, was a chair. the question paper had only one topic which is
worth full marks. it required the student to state why does the chair not
exist. everyone in the exam hall was busy writing down stating all the facts and
reasoning as to why the chair did not exist.

one guy finished writing, and handed up his answer sheet after 10mins and
left. he got full marks for this exam paper. just what was it that he wrote?

"What chair?"

hehe funny right... so i suppose some people might have read this before but i find it amusing considering the position i'm currently in: a university student who will take exam sometime this year. so enjoy it while i share. :D

*what sucks and blows at the same time?*

Saturday, March 12, 2005

gee

i'm going nuts with this database thing!!! here's what happened this afternoon... i had done some updating to my lappy and had to reboot. and when i was done rebooting, OMFG! my settings i had done last night were all gone dammit! it took me hours to figure what in the world was wrong. *panic* i didn't do screenshot when it was successful last night. so i *had* to solve this problem.

ok end result was i did. took some tweaking after i got down n dirty.

it hit me what i'm doing. i was looking thru my posts in this blog.

i used to do it when i was younger.

i kept a diary initially, writing my daily thoughts, filling in the occasional gossip i heard in school etc... then as the days passed my records grew monotonous. day in day out it was all about schoolling, going to school, having lessons... blah. i was recording what i did that day in my diary. i suppose you could say, the diary was no longer a diary. it had turned into an event log. i don't know why i was turning that way. perhaps i was worried i would one day get amnesia and forget all that i had done, so that when i read the log, i would know what i did. well maybe if i turn forgetful that is. like do i need to go school on sunday or something like that.

my point is...

i think i'm repeating myself. i think i'm repeating myself. no not that kind of repeating.

my new diary being this blog, has in many aspects, turned into an activity log. yes once again i am reporting to the blog what i do daily. only difference this time is there're people reading too. not that it really matters in that aspect.

some other blogs i know of are similar with regards to the activity log too, but i shan't point out whose. in retrospect, i think a diary should not be just about recording what was done. rather the feelings and emotions a person experiences throughout the day. happiness and sadness. ups and downs. so perhaps i should gain a better understanding of this reasoning and realign myself to relate more of what goes on in my heart than what goes on in my daily life. but of course i must admit, being male, i'd probably tend to conveniently rationalise things. so this might take a while.

gawd i rant a lot.

right. so down to the business proper.

i feel much cleaner now. the bedsheets were washed after i woke up. XD not forgetting some parts were still rather damp so we collected them and i placed mine over the lamp shades in my room. HAHAHA... that's one technique i learnt from my parents whilst on overseas holidays at hotel rooms. *snicker* it's only pillow cases lah nothing unmentionable. and not forgetting that i vac-ed the house too! to think i actually bothered to even do any sort of cleaning here leh. and i flamed a few spider webs as well as "spider control"-ed a few spiders in the backyard. i wouldn't call it a sense of achievement but pest control seems lacking here. i feel insecure when there're too many small invertebrates near me.

hrmm and i don't think it's meant to be enjoyable, but... i killed another spider. this time round with sufficient firepower, i sprayed the spider control on it, then flame it. it's currently curled up in one corner of the window sill in the toilet. and dead. it's of the similar family from the previous one! eek. scare leh... imagine it running along while one of us took a shower. then imagine it's me. censor off the naked parts. now try hearing me shriek like a little girl who saw a giant moth fly towards her. *cue scary music*

so currently yes i'm pretty much satisfied with the assignment A. but i'm drop dead anxious about the one due on thursday. reason being i barely typed 5 rows of text in word for it. and it's meant to be a 1500 word essay. i'm hoping i won't be killed by the fact that this subject is all theoretical. which i believe actually is. -sigh sigh-

and oh lordy, 2wks from now is a week-long holiday. yeah they call it mid-session break. gawd time flies... it's close to week 4 of uni life already... and i've been here for a month! and i still hardly touched the 1500... gahhhh must stop thinking about that... ok i shan't.

you probably thinking if only this idiot blogs lesser and puts in the same amount of time into the 1500 he'd be able to finish it in an hour. i wish i could. blogging just gives me space for my verbal diarrhoea. this 1500 word essay requires me to read up here and there to link references from which i quote. so it'll be a bit more challenging than blogging. and less informal too mind you. don't expect to see swearing and singlish in the essay. haha... and you probably noticed by now my english in here is a bit more proper than before. i've decided to work on this. at least it can improve my standards slightly. not that i have a vast array of vocabulary to apply it on. but it's worth a try to keep my dignity standing. heh...

right better stop ranting for haircuts. i'm keeping my fingers crossed that i can get my haircut settled tomorrow. it might help me to think better for my 1500...

*can you picture what might happen if xiaohui hump xiaohei?*

Friday, March 11, 2005

been warming my bed

the time is now 3.15am. i have been sitting on my bed with the laptop struggling for 3hrs or so. i shall let u in on what i was up to.

but first!

the events for today...

i woke around 7.15am, not surprisingly, for lecture at 8.30... woke jason up too! he wanted to go gym. so we mull around for some time before heading off to campus. the first part she went thru some slides, yada yada... then she started mentioning about the next milestone. and before we knew it, everyone was busy scribbling down points from her powerpoint slides. obviously we were short of time(2hrs nia) and she gained momentum as she reached the end of the slides. we could barely catch up with the slides liao. a lot of ppl pek chek plus give up haha... including this irritating guy beside me, one seat away. he was practically fidgetting about, poking at the chair to his left, right, and front. shake shake leg, check his phone... the works. i was so distracted by this china fella.

so that was that and i headed to meet jason in one of the labs we have lesson in. we needed to catch up on some of the assignment stuff, which until just _now_ we weren't able to work from home.

and then we had a meeting with the other 3 guys. to remind u, they're a guy from thailand, one from canton, china and another from serbia. it lasted about an hour. an amazingly we had the meeting despite the supervisor calling in sick(her son sick; not her)... and we talked. well jason was doing most of the talking. i suppose they aren't too familiar with the web technologies we'll be implementing so they didn't have much to comment about. just questions about the simple functionalities of this and that. and they didn't really do their homework. disappointedly.

the meeting ended and these 2 poor guys went back to the lab to continue our work. gosh we worked until 4.30pm!!! tt was supposedly when they'll be coming to run maintenance on the PCs. so we left.

we reached home famished. jason started cooking meatballs. and i followed on with the rice. and in the midst of cooking i was trying to figure out the work at hand. eh credit would partially go to jason for helping me out with it lah... hehe... dinner for today(this is kinda our only meal today for some weird reason):
  • rice,
  • meatballs,
  • beef stirfry with veg.(yes jason is on a warpath with veg)

and i've been here ever since. ah yes... what i was struggling with? it's not really the assignment. that i was kinda settled. left some tweaking as soon as i got the frigging server up! i'm so please with myself now... jason somehow came across documentation [WARNING: techie details] online that mentioned Oracle 10g did not include the Apache web server in the package as per Oracle 9i did. so he passed me a link to download the stuff from. it took over an hour to download, and ages to install. Oracle setup stages have been known to take very long given they take up loads of memory. after setting up the extension for web server, i had to click around and around and around and around to tweak and test in order for me to run it properly. i had wanted to setup the DAD - Database Access Director, so i can run PL/SQL Pages aka PSP on my Oracle database over the web browser. it's something like jsp, php, cfm... only it's by oracle and it's stored in the database.

[ALRIGHT END OF TECHIE DETAILS] so finally i had everything setup nicely, i can finally run my scripts and format plus display everything nicely on the web browser. yes i'm happy. at least i can heave a sigh of relief for the deadline on monday! just needs printing out and consolidating my work and i'm done! and then there's the thursday deadline... =_=

*i'm sure my gorilla everyday feeling high*

Thursday, March 10, 2005

milestone = i die

so i was home for almost the whole day.

lunch was meatballs with spaghetti. yes meatballs WITH spaghetti. we had lots of them. and we added spaghetti. hahaha...

tutorial at 3.30... and i got stun a while when i reached. heard from my classmates there's a milestone! what is a milestone you ask? it's basically a test thingy. so anyway it was open book but i didn't exactly have much notes to open to so i just wrote away. they gave a passage regarding an organisation on a page, and on the other page requires me to write down some stuff about them. the vision, mission and values! gee it was a real headache to really identify those stuff. i'm predicting i won't make it for the milestone. so i handed it up and walked out to wait for jason to pick me up.

we were supposed to head to the chinese barber(which of all places resides in a chinese department store shopfront. when we arrived, it was unfortunately not open. "only on sundays", the cashier/lady boss said. so we jus hang around a bit and bought some stuff.

next stop was woolworths. yes it's been a while since we last dropped by this place. and boy did we buy for all it's worth... the amount came up to A$125! and jason paid for it. sadly, i'm once again even heavier in debt to him. erh why he pay ha? well, he wanted to pay by nets(over here it's called EFTPOS) so that he can withdraw money at the same time.

ladida and we went home. i got the lighter for kitchen stoves this time! muahaha... so off i went to torture the ants crawling around the backyard. my enhanced flamethrower was working nicely! it breathes a puff of flame on the unsuspecting insects and charred them dead. i could almost hear them screaming in agony! *cue thunder n lightning* and i flamed a few spider webs too! hehe... then we had dinner. steak! with stir fried capsicums and mushrooms stuffus...

then we decided to try out the spider control spray we bought. our target: a spider in the front garden outside the window. the weeds were growing until it stuck the window abit. took a while to try and get the window pushed up and opened. and i sprayed the spider with the can of spider control spray. it's supposed to kill on contact! and lasts up to 6mths! with that spider out of the way, i used my flamethrower to burn it's web down. muahahaha *more evil laughter* finally, jason got the shears out and we trimmed the weeds away from the window! die you moronic weeds, die!

and i'm happily seated here since then being unproductive and all.

i'm torn between wanting to complete last 2 tasks of an assignment A, with start typing _anything_ for the 1500 essay assignment B. both next week due le!!!

*4 days left and counting. is anyone reading this?! XD*

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

what an uplifting day!

okae so i woke up slightly before 9 this morning. someone overslept and didn't go gym afterall, and my turning on the tap n stuff woke him up. awwwww. i guess we were both too concentrated on getting the assignments done last night. haa... so i cooked instant noodles for breakfast, and we went on our way. lesson was at 10.30am. and we were on time~ wow amazing. haha... thus 2hrs of lecture and we've got an hour before the next lecture starts.

well, jason's going to his religious thingy and i did a little exploring. what on? well it seems there's a hair salon on campus. so i popped over to find out how to get to the shopfront(we always see the signboard at their window from downstairs) and asked for their haircut prices. "$25 on tuesdays and wednesdays, and $29 for the other days" came the cheerful reply. she was working on a customer's hair so i probably shouldn't irritate her.

next stop, i headed to a lab we go to for one of our lesson, which is currently available for use. and i'm glad to say i manage to fiddle my way around thru the Unix via SSH. basically we're suppose to login to another computer (running Unix) thru those WinXP ones, using a client called Secured Shell. and from there i followed some bit of instructions and managed to access sqlplus (another program available on WinXP and Unix, command-line based, for use with database called Oracle DB) and fiddle with psp, pl/sql pages. haha too much jargon here i think. AT THE END OF THE DAY (hope that caught yr bored eyes), i learnt how to do something a different way, and a little bit something new too! oh and sadly i can't access their servers via wireless connection on my laptop. sad...

then came the next lesson another 2hrs worth. here comes the lady who speaks without speaking again. fortunately she took the 1st hour and the angmoh guy took the 2nd hour. i used my lappy's dictator+ MS Word and took down her speech. you must be thinking... wow amazing huh? hrmm not really. the speech recognition couldn't really comprehend what she said apparently (hey not as if i could either) and came up with a jumble of words. i shall paste a portion of what it translated...

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...more rubbish i rather not paste so much of...

now, i assure you non of the above is supposed to make any sense. neither is it related to what was being taught AT ALL! i just let the dicator run itself for a while, and this is what it came up with. =_= i showed jason and we couldn't stop giggling until i stopped the tool and closed my laptop. MUAHAHAHAHA so disruptive. tsk.

then lesson was over and we went home. yay! oh on our way home, we went past a grocer aka mama shop and bought a can of insecticide and a cigarette lighter. and a box of matches for backup. went home and try it out on the ant trail in the backyard, and a few spider webs. woohoo! insecticide+lighter = flame thrower!!! yeah the flame completely blew the ants away. and the spider webs went up in smoke instantly! i'm not sure if i killed any spiders but their homes were sure ruined. and fumigated at the same time too~ satisfied with my testing, i placed it aside. and jason declares hunger.

so on the spur of a moment, i decided to help make dinner! yes! me! cook! ok so for beginner like me, i really shouldn't do anything too high level. so my dish for today was, fried rice. yeah... cooked some rice, fried some sausages and luncheon meat, fry in wok, add eggs... mmm... well yes jason made satay chicken stirfry for dish too. so here's the result!

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here's our dinner for tonight~

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my plate of fried rice!

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Wok with fried rice in it still. dun worry... we finished it all off!

hehe yeah so that's 2 things i'm happy about today. learnt new technique on the computer, and new dish in the kitchen... V^_^

on the flipside, i'm hoping my dad is fine. he's been in and out of hospital these days. old man problems... my bro rushed him in to hospital at 3am the day before. doc gave him med for his ailment and caused fever fluctuations.

oops this post got kinda draggy, esp with the dictator part. but that's about it for now. i'm busy with my assignments. rushing for a deadline on monday and thursday. and i'm at 0% for the thursday deadline.

*ganbatte!*

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

is that my biorhythm acting up?

woke up to do work around 11, and had lunch around 1.30pm. i cooked the rice n jason made the dish. stir fry chicken+ sausages n stuff. then we rushed to school for lesson. after 1hr of lecture came 2hrs of lab. at last one thing i'm proud of myself with today. managed to solve a lab exercise question... -sigh-

then i headed home myself. dinner tonight: tube of Pringles, Texas BBQ flavor. uh yeah i finished the whole tube. XD

and continue doing work...

and i think i hopefully completed 4/6 of the tasks which i'm not sure if it's good. considering the deadline is next monday.

then i felt peckish and headed to the kitchen to grab a bite. next thing i saw on the other end of the kitchen was... a damn spider!!! aiyeyayeya... i alerted jason and we discussed wad to do. and we executed(ya la kinda impromptu anyway)

wave 1:
smoke bomb! aka insecticide. i gassed the area around the spider! *first hit bonus*

wave 2:
matches+ air freshener. sadly after 7 tries, the matches kept blowing out and the flame wasn't sustainable. erm yes this is what happens when little boys play with fire with aerosol bottles. *back to the drawing board*

wave 3:
more insecticide! and this time, because i kinda damaged the spray head, it kept spraying on and on and on. and the spider this time round was already crawling all over the wall in a drunken state of confusion. so i continued spraying. and the bottle ran out of juice. by the time i put it down it was already freezing cold cos of all that chemical reaction.

wave 4:
kinda last resort now. i took up a broom and whacked the spider. it came off the kitchen cabinet and fell on the floor. i think it played dead for a while and slowly decided to make a run. so before it could get away, i hit it another 3-5 times. i think i took apart one of its leg and killed it dead dead dead. it scrunched up its legs and died like a dead spider should. *mitigation action*

wave 5:
being city slickers we are, we didn't want to touch the critter. never know if it's still alive or something. so i took the vac and sucked it into the pouch. there you go, safely disposed of the titu.

so yay~ tonight i fuck spider! MUAHAHAHAHA... pity we didn't take any fotos. i think it was a Huntsman Spider. i looked up some websites just. it's about the size of a cdrom (with its legs spread out la) and it's kinda brown.

then i happily took a slice of the cake we baked (yes joane i *helped* to bake la) and ate. sadly i had to go jason's room to eat. the kitchen is too fumigated now to consume anything without dropping dead or growing an extra eyeball on my neck or something.

muahaha... jason dun dare touch spider... ok i guess i feel better about myself now. i shall try to start on my 1500 word essay.

*eh rachel, can consider me anot when i come back?*

Monday, March 07, 2005

day of self doubt

woke up feeling damn cold this morning. made myself instant dry noodles(yes i know, again) for breakfast. it was really really cold!!! then i decided to make soup to bring to school in case i got hungry(well to the end i didn't consume any of it till i returned home). then i went school alone. jason went gym earlier on and was in campus already.

lab highlight: oral checking. they assessed us on the lab work. they wanted to be sure we knew what we were doing and not eating snake. well we did what was necessary in a jiffy. cos by the time the assessor came to our turn we're already pretty late! 5mins into the next lecture! so we blah thru the stuff and made a dash for the lecture theatre. the guy was gonna talk on something important we wanted to find out.

then we went home. oh on the way home we grabbed a few sausages, steak and some other stuff. first thing we did, make cake. yes we already bought choco cake mix few days ago. now we've got the milk and baking paper. so we baked. i helped with the mixing!

dinner for tonight was:
  • steak
  • 2x sausages
  • sunny side up
  • baked potato + sour cream for me

i'm currently working on one of the assignment. but i'm also trying to configure the oracle database to work properly. i jus found out it comes with the loadpsp program we needed! so i'm exploring it's functions so i can fiddle with pl/sql pages on my lappy instead of having to access the one on campus running on unix server.

i'm actually feeling not too good about myself today. got the inferiority complex. blame jason. HAHAHA... hey he probably thinks i'm mocking him or wad but he's good in some ways i'm not... can cook, code, creative, compose...(well almost. he plays the piano), and crap. well that's it. he's got all the 5Cs. oh and i can't win a debate with him. at the end of the discussion i'll come to find that my theories of arguments are flawed. so i jus smile n move on. i certainly hope i'm not getting on his nerves anytime soon. else no more cooking for me le... it reminds of those tv drama/movies where there're 2 room mates in the show, one smarter than the other. and i think i'm the dumber one. -sigh-

i think i'm losing it. my skills as a IT person. i'm losing "the knack". XD quite depressing in some way. just not the sane kind. maybe i'm just an average student afterall.

*i'm glad my gorilla is in safe hands*

Sunday, March 06, 2005

lobang

erm not that i can apply now, but i got this in my email.

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so if anybody knows anybody looking for a job, maybe can try out over with catcha. gd luck. hehe...

blah

there really isn't much to post today.

i woke up 12noon, made pancakes for jason and myself as lunch around 1-2pm... yes i made. first time! the pancakes didn't come out very nice and round but at least they're edible.

then i'm stuck on my bed until evening.

jason went out for church and i made myself instant dry noodles.

and back to the desk again.

i just snacked on potato chips cos i'm feeling peckish.

there goes another day staying indoors and feeling cold. yes the weather's machiam aircon on all the time. and i'm coooold...

*i'm taking a break now. please come again later!*

Saturday, March 05, 2005

land reclamation!!!

muahaha... i woke up at 12noon to lunch. well yes jason cooked lunch after he woke an hour ago. let's see... today's menu for lunch:
  • rice(cooked by jason)
  • stir fry beef
  • stir fry chicken
  • onion omelette

then upon discovering we needed to get some gardening stuff, we headed out to get them. Bunnings is a warehouse-style mall. they sell all sorts of tools, hardware, and anything related to construction, lighting and gardening. quite a huge area too. their aisles run for 100m or so, at least 2-3 storeys tall with 4-5 shelves of items. ok enough description. basically they're housed in a warehouse so they have plenty of space. and this is what we've got...

  • rat poison blocks for ratbert
  • ant killing bait for antbert
  • gardening gloves for jasonbert
  • nylon string for grasstrimmer-bert
  • threading seal tape for watertap-bert
  • bucket for grass-mulch-bert

well that was pretty much it. but i suppose 90% of the people won't understand what's the deal with -bert up there. hehe... ratbert is a character with Dilbert comics.

and comes the main event. yes, once again we have brought you to (without any pictorials) the event arena. for today, we will be tackling new frontiers. what the heck i'm talking about? aiya cut grass lah... enough of chim english. so i bought the nylon and wound it to the grass trimmer. then jason found the container that goes with the lawnmower. yay! no more getting our feet and footwear buried in the grass mulch coming out the lawnmower... XD

so i did the mowing on the front lawn, in full view of all the neighbors, cars going past, and the passengers of the bus that passes by the bus stop right in front of our house. jason then used the grass trimmer to take care of the edges, i mow the driveway, he trim. and that it with the grass. for now.

we next targetted the plants in the garden that has since grown out of hand. armed with a shear each, we proceeded to cutting away weeds, and protruding plants. yes, we cruelly cut off flowering branches too. cos they were sticking out. and we also had to cut a path thru to the gas meter(heating), and the water meter and tap. quite a pile of plant protrusions we'd gathered! oh and then i 顺便 fix the leaky tap. oh yah and then there was a water hole thingy for duno wad. it seemed like it had a lot of creatures inside. i took a bottle of oil from the fridge we didn't use, and i poured it down there. haha... i hate mozzies breeding. hope this reduces the amount!

alright i noe this is gettin boring but i wana continue a while longer...

so we were done with the front yard. i adamantly wanted to thrash the rear end too! so we took all our barang-barang and went behind to our backyard. there was still a portion of the backyard with frigging tall grass. and i wanted to cut them down to size. leaving the lawnmower behind, i attempted to tame the grassy patch wielding the grass trimmer. sadly i could only shorten the grass. they were too thick! i guess we'll try again next week. the bin is almost full!!! muahaha... satisfied with the path of destruction i left behind, we pulled back to our house as the mozzies sent their pilots to attack us for destroying their hideout. i think i killed 2. oh anyway while i was whipping the grass with the trimmer, jason was cutting the whipped portions with the shear, and raking it into a heap. i think i was testing his patience by hanging around that area for too long and feeding the mozzies.

finally, i took a well deserved shower(erm yes still cold, but considering we sweat so much it felt a bit warm anyway) while jason took a late afternoon jog. ahh... finally comfy and clean. rid of the grassy bits on my legs too.

so we mull around a while, and headed out to get dinner. yes i spared jason tonight. dinner was from the nearby chinese take-away restaurant. and the menu was:

  • fried rice
  • wanton in soup with ham slices
  • lemon chicken(deep fried, yuk)
  • spring rolls
  • prawn crackers

all that for 2 of us at a price of A$19.50! ok la i guess... comes with plastic containers somemore. and it was pretty filling.

*future direction for japanese animation: bunny girl hentai! XD*

Friday, March 04, 2005

a long short day...

i only had one lesson today. lecture at 8.30. and i woke at 8am!!! nearly panicked... but as usual i found i had enough time to mull around, take a dump and walked to school. just in time ahead of the lecturer walking in. and so she started talking. and before long i had a familiar feeling... in my bowels... i had to go. again! XD yea grossing you out with this topic. anyway, surprisingly the lecture ended early and i made my way to the nearest toilet. and then i headed home. the 2hr lecture ended an hour early!

then came 11.30 we had to meet in school with the group and our supervisor. soon enough the meeting was over and i left for home while jason headed off to his lesson... lunch for today:
  • twisties chicken flavor
  • and garlic bread

nothing fancy i jus lazy to make anything proper haha... so i did my homework until dinner time. and boy was i drowsy. sleepy! i stayed up till 2am last night working on the assignment. seems i can work better at night. although i'll feel sleepy just the same.

dinner was served. fusili bolognese. mmmm... and then back to the workdesk(i meant this as a figure of speech since technically the desk i'm working on is a bed tray, but you probably already know that). jason had his religious gathering thingy to which i sent/fetched him to and from campus. just fill in the gaps with my assignment. and i'm still working on the assignment now... it's 2.50am!

well let me tell u what the assignment has. it's for a database subject, and comes in 6 separate tasks. each task is worth between 0.2 to 0.5 marks(aka very little), and involves drawing out some diagrams. this requires quite a lot of thinking considering the diagrams are rather fluid and not all that constant. for those in the know, it's known as Unified Modelling Language aka UML. my current status is i'd done tasks 1 & 2. what's left are 3 to 6. =_= wish me luck. it's due on shan's birthday. HAHAHA... didn't see that coming did u...

so yes, my day consists mostly of toiling at the assignment. nothing much happened aka short day. the long part... ask the assignment.

*if i die, i become butterfly; better be mosquito, can go suck ppl dry.*

Thursday, March 03, 2005

gardener for the day.

for not much reason, i woke at 10. after finishing the last of the sara lee, i worked on an assignment from a subject. come 1pm, i was supposedly going to campus to meet up with jason and group members. but apparently i got all dressed up and going to be late, i was 5mins to reaching campus... called up jason. "but i thought i told you to stay at home?!" uh... ok my mistake. being preoccupied and preprogrammed to go attend the meeting i didn't need to.

so i trodded home and started cooking rice. today's lunch menu:
  • Cooked white rice served with,
  • omelette fried with onions,
  • stir fried beef with sausages & onions,
  • and luncheon meat(for me only cos jason dun like)

mmm it was nice. it was a rather chinese-y meal. heh homecooked style yay! altho he added too much onions, in my opinion.

so i washed up the dishes and headed for school. yes, i have lesson at 3.30. first tutorial of the whole time i'm here! class headcount: 14, including me. tutor made us pair up and assigned us random seminar topics. uh... presentation lah. the supposedly 1hr worth of tutorial thus ended. at 4pm. back to home i went... and we arrive at the main activity and thus topic of today's post...

we cut grass! yes! the backyard was growing into a jungle. so i told jason i wanted to do it yesterday but it was cold. so today do lor. i'll summarise the steps. HAHAHAHA

round 1-

  • weapon of choice: lawnmower without collection pouch
  • contestant: ken
  • location: grassy plains of backyard
  • result: grass shortened by a lot!
  • backlash: legs, feet and sandals buried in grass mulch

round 2-

  • weapon of choice: grass trimmer O' Titans
  • contestant: jason
  • location: edges, sideyard
  • result: giant spider web destroyed! XD
  • backlash: itchy legs and green stains on slippers

round 3-

  • weapon of choice: the rake of retribution
  • contestant: ken
  • location: backyard in general
  • result: knee high pile of grass mulch
  • backlash: more grass on my sandals

round 4-

  • weapon of choice: broom of banishing
  • contestants: jason & ken
  • location: garage front
  • result: grass mulch transferred into trashbin
  • backlash: mosquito bites!

ok lah too much you read also sian. that was basically it. i wish there were photos but sadly we were too occupied with doing the deed to take any pictures. the trashbin is the same size as the green ones you see around singapore. we filled it up about 80%. imagine the amount of grass we had cut!

so now our backyard is once again reclaimed. and we have preserved the santicity of the little green patch behind our house. there's still a small patch of "forested" area at the back but we'll get to it another day... it's really tall grass. oh and we trimmed the plants too. they were getting out of hand and in the way.

alright so we settled everything and had our dinner. what's on for the menu tonight? lamb chop! served with potato slices. and then it's back to the drawing board. finally Oracle DB 10g has completed downloading. i d/l it last night but the damn zip file had errors.

okie tomorrow's lecture's at 830am. i think i've blah enough for today!

*hop hop hop... hop away...*

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

the lecturer who spoke without speaking.

lesson started early today~ 10.30! the lecture went on for 2hrs. i dished out my laptop halfway thru and got some questions of my own answered. erm well the questions popped out when he was speaking. and i rather finding out the answer for myself! so it ended before 12.30

and the library was next stop. i miraculously found another 2 books. so i borrowed them and left. my lunch for today: Nacho chips! hey they came in smaller packs so i manage to finish it off. got kinda lost looking for the lecture theatre that has since change venue.

and this leads us to the title of today's post. the short: the lecturer sucked. i dozed off several times! so basically, assuming she's a chinese, her angmoh very jialat. i can hardy hear anything from her properly. AND she was reading off the slides. so basically we were better off reading the slides ourselves(the whole crowd) and even if she added anything useful in her speech, we probably wouldn't have heard it. well at least jason caught the important bits. he was jotting down plenty of stuff on his printouts. shows i'm not paying as much attention... ha...

so we headed home and popped out to crown st mall. jason's getting some pocket reference books, and me? the bed tray! yes! i finally got the bed tray!!! here's how it looks!



and remember the books i mentioned? thick thick ones... well these were it.



so yeah that's pretty much it for today. meanwhile i'm enjoying my new bed tray, where else, on my bed. laptop is now on my lap without being actually on my lap. ha!

*everyone wants a piece of the bunny girl?!*

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

city slicker meets wild backyard vegetation

I started the day around eleven and cooked rice for Jason to fry. yes yes we had fried rice for lunch. this time the rice tastes better overall. then the laundry was done so we hurriedly hung them out and made for the door. why? well we're supposed to meet a lecturer regarding the project. so we made our way to campus in the hot sun.

we talked. we got her signature. yay! priority request as a slick move. hehe we're cunning. or rather jason is more cunning. XD oops... anyway we met up with 3 guys. we got them to sign on the paper on the spot. and thus we met those 2 fellas we met yesterday and broke the news to them. i suppose jason is more confident of telling them to get lost. HAHAHA... then for the first time we visited the library! i borrowed 4 bloody thick books. 3 RFC-topic related and 1 C++ book. then was time for lecture. after lecture was lab for another subject. i gotta admit. database... sql... i can't remember them all that well anymore. getting old? i've got bad memory. thru out the lab i was asking jason this n that. and he seemed to breeze thru the stuff in the lab notes/instructions. gawd wads wrong with me... i'm not catching up!

well anyway after the lab i left for home alone. he's got some other stuff to be involved in.

laundry was dried so i collected them. hrmm grass was a bit itchy cos it's kinda tall. so wad did i do? i dug out a hedge trimmer from the garage and began slaughtering those pesky weeds. then i whipped out a grass trimmer, plugged it in and started slicing tall grass along the sides of the backyard! wheee so fun! by the time i was done, my arms and fingers were aching and trembling, my body was sweaty and warm. geez wad a workout. so i put things aside. tomorrow if i have time i shall do the main body of the yard with the lawnmower. that's when action starts! hehe...

so i took a cold shower(erm yes forever no hot water) and got comfy online. dinner for tonight: jap curry+beef+potatoes with jap rice! and yes, as usual i cook the rice while jason does the rest. yay there's more improvement in today's meal!

the assignments will have to be worked on soon. hope i can cope. wish me luck!

*thinking of the bunny girl everyday XD*