the big shift!

ooh... remember the glass cabinet/cupboard thingy i'd been clearing out the past weeks? it's finally shifted out! it took 3 of us (my dad, maid and myself) to carry the bugger downstairs. that's 3 flight of stairs! it's not too heavy after we'd removed the glass doors. but for its age it's pretty usable/in good condition still. we shifted it into the maid's room. yes our maid has her own room! lol... well we use it as a bit of a store room anyway...

so my room now has a big gaping hole beside my desk, where the cupboard used to be. i'll tidy up my room somemore still i guess. it's still a bit messy. just not _as_ messy as before.

my sis is getting a new flat in TPY. it'll only be ready come 2009. in the meantime, my dad teased me. he said i shouldn't get married before my sis has her wedding banquet. which was around 2009. >_<" and they even said i could move into her room because it's larger than mine, and so could fit a bed for two better. =x i don't mind my own room really. i'm sure with some rearrangement a queen size bed can fit nicely! xD but when they repeated it in front of my sis, she looked at me as if i sabo-ed her... cos... my parents are of course happy that my siblings both managed to get apartments of their own. but that would mean nobody is going to live with them. they might consider selling this house. upkeep isn't exactly cheap. :( i rather i stay with them, and help offset costs. and if possible can help look after them ah. at least even though i didn't buy this place, they can still live here comfortably...

i don't know if i'll still think this way in years to come. but for now, i still think i would want my parents to live with me. even if my siblings... aren't convenient to do so. i'm just following the example i'd been given. my dad. wonder if i'll change my mind in future. hope not. :( i'd be pretty ashamed of myself if i do. just hope i'm able to support them. not that they need much of it. they'd planned out their retirement pretty much. but it's good if they can live happily without worry for their... $. i know they do now.

ok enough of that rambling. i still remember i used to cry sometimes feeling really depressed late at night before sleeping. when i was much younger. i'd wonder what would happen if my parents passed away, and (since i was still young) who would look after me... would my siblings not care for me in the eventuality? would i be left out alone on the streets? uh. yes... i was that maniacal thinking about those silly thoughts. at least i'm pretty much retorting my own silly thoughts now because i'm capable of taking care of myself. so it gets cancelled off.

i really shouldn't type incessantly like this. makes my mind wander. =_=

*i try harder*