yippee to my ppt!

so goes another day lying in bed. hahaha well ok i was in bed but i wasn't sleeping. i'm working on the 10-slide presentation and doing quite a bit of reading up for the dumb "seminar" which is just another word for presentation. makes it sound more professional perhaps.

i suppose i'm pretty much done. 10 slides of stuff that tries very hard to make sense.

right about now, i can hear the wind howling outside. very strong wind... blowing sudden gusts, stopping as suddenly as it started. it's giving the night a despondent feel to everything. the house is not too affected, but when there is a gust small or big, certain parts of the house would creak. that's the thing with houses built mostly with wood. the difference in singapore is, most buildings are built out of bricks. maybe that's why they cost a bit more. nevertheless, i guess either way of house construction has their pros and cons.

it's not that i didn't realise it before, but i'm somewhat discouraged about the fact that certain things in life cannot be helped. or controlled by oneself. mostly because one would be in some ways out of the boundaries of such things. does anyone sometimes feel that they wish they can simply tell others what to do, what to think, and what to feel? i'm getting this myriad of thoughts in my head i'm not exactly being anywhere close to getting expressive about them. i think these thoughts are basically a disgustingly meshed up pile of messy ideas in my head. bah... not making sense...

howling winds are depressing.

i just found out, EL's mum passed away... today. my condolences to him... he's my ex classmate from TP. she left due to cancer. this is a saddening time of the year. it seemed, just not too long ago nick's mum passed away too. it seemd barely 2weeks plus ago? and my secondary school classmate's grandmother was having some problems too, and didn't seem she's going to last... and...you know who you are... ok enough about all that deaths. i have to admit that death is happening around us all time. but we'll probably be aware of it only if it happens closer to us, and the people around us we care about (and in this case mostly, happening to the people that *these* people care about) that puts the spotlight on the issue. nevertheless, life goes on.

as i was saying... howling winds are depressing.

*fist action*