i can't really make much sense of most of the train of thoughts. some are like bullet trains from japan, some on the german railway zipping through europe. some are old choo choo steam trains for kiddy rides in pet zoos. so maybe i'll just try to rationalise about those choo choo trains since them seem easier to comprehend. but then again, nothing is for certain.
i do have lots of homework. that i know quite obviously. of the 4 subjects i'm having at least 3(the other is a "project") have work to do. i'm just procrastinating.
did i mention few days ago i saw a wild bunny rabbit on campus? i was on my way with jason to one of the blocks when i saw it hopping around. it apparently didn't belong to anyone(i doubt anyone would wish to let it roam around near the carpark/road) and it was all brown and hoppity. and then another day i saw a kookaburra in my backyard. didn't manage to snap a shot cos we were too slow to get the cameras out. it flew out of range of our cameras. it was at least 10 times the size of a mynah you'd see in singapore! fancy catching sight of wildlife around us just like that.
oh yes and i digressed... my homework i would wish to continue doing. but given the effect of holidays, i don't feel up to doing any. to be honest i've been propped up on my bed today whole day. i slept at 5am(jason probably was about to wake up in an hour's time or two) and woke 2pm. "you pig!" you exclaim. surely i did something productive today? i don't think i did. just been coughing away. oh yes i am having a bit of a sore throat. had it for a few days already. it is now developing into a wheezy kind of cough plus sniffles on the sides. i'm sucking on one of them strepsils lozenges for now. it was for "First sign of a cold"; the box had a label. i'm beginning to wonder if the lozenge was worsening my sore throat into something more severe.
there the other train left the station. i digressed again. my homework i'm just simply considering how to start, which to start on. but at the same time my other train is having a desire to get creative and do something fancy. like design a website for fun. to add to my own portfolio. or to draw something amazing and "WOW". yup that's the train on the next platform. and then of course i'm thinking if i should get some hobby like take up surfing/diving course etc. but those cost money! ooh another is about making new friends. "surely you jest?" i kid you not, to be honest i'm anti social at times and prefer to get stuck at home mulling. but i'm socially inept at times. some people just label that as being lame.
there was once i went to outward bound singapore, for a 5 day course. we went kayaking in open water and stay overnight at a little island. we had some sort of informal peer review and eventually the comments came to my turn. and almost everyone had the same idea. i should do away with the lame jokes and be myself. but i AM being myself telling lame jokes right? so they say i was trying too hard to be the funny guy and i simply nod my head. maybe they're right. i'd always admitted to being lame.
oh and there i digressed once again. right. so by now you lot have probably lost all respect you ever had for me(gee, :( you mean you didn't even had an ounce of it?) and come to terms with the fact i'm not a fantastic person. well yeah who is ever perfect right? i used to tell everyone(well at least a handful) that
"if a person is perfect, that person is not human"and yes you can go ahead and quote me on that. although i do believe i heard that from elsewhere, correct me if i'm wrong but don't sue me for plagiarism due to ignorance k? there are times that i feel down, feel up, feel in between, and all sorts of emotions humans experience in life. ah heck i suppose the biorhythm is on the downslide for now. or it's just tuned itself to another channel and getting plenty of distortion.
uh... back to my trains. i can't figure out some of them. some things are simply bogging down my mind. not necessarily unimportant per se, just bogging down due to various factors of which i can't properly state down due to my incompetence.
i'd attribute this to a disorder which i believe everyone in singapore has. the DISorder seems so commonplace it almost seems in order. so i guess by de facto that i'm normal actually.
i could withdraw from civilisation and "get away from it all". but that would just defeat the purpose of coming down under wouldn't it? i have occasionally come to conclusions that i'm in reality a bad person. however i am constantly reminded by my inner self that 人之过，性本善, and i feel better about myself after that.
*i feel like i'm causing turmoil on a lot of people including myself*
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