addiction

i think i am addicted to Gunbound.
i am playing into the wee hours.
it is now 4am in the morning.
again.
this is bad.
i need to stop playing the game for a little while i think.

a handful of people already asked me what i want for birthday. in serious fact, all i ask for is some company. a bunch of people having a simple meal with me is all. presents are an added bonus. i think i've been going around repeating this "i only ask for your presence, not presents." to people. hope nobody would call me up last minute to say they weren't gonna show up.

hrmm i hope everyone understands how agonising it can get to be in limbo. waiting for the next phase of my life to start. i'm counting down... 23 days more to go. during this period of time i'll feel joy sadness happiness anxiety nervous stressed anticipating what will come next. being the selfish person i am i certainly hope nobody gives me more suffering than i should.

i think my biorhythm is down these days. or maybe it's just me losing games in gunbound. haha... certainly hope i'll cheer up come sunday. :D

i think there's something wrong with me. i'm constantly incurring the wraths of people i think. some might just say there's nothing wrong and stuff, but obviously me not being dumb can tell there's something wrong. i do enjoy people screwing me. scolding i mean. not the literal... at least they let it out at me and both should feel better that it's all hell breaks loose, the scolder would somehow vent the anger, the scoldee(aka me) will understand what has gone wrong. some scolders may bear the matter in mind and bring it up again the next round of scolding occurs. not their fault but it's just odd, i find, to bring up old issues against new ones.

*i think i'm morbidly stupid to play the nice guy*