lazy day

i'm feeling light-headed now but i guess i'd always been feeling that way the whole day today. i pretty much didn't do any of the transcribing work today. i was working on some other web thingy. but. i got no inspiration! argh! i gotta admit i don't really have any design flare to begin with. i'm dead as a fish for ideas+creativity. i'm a programmer. -sigh-

i met with some guys to check out what webdev project they have for me. friend intro lobang of course must check it out ma. seems not too bad a job nevertheless.

hmm i'm feeling better today. no dripping tap at least. but throat a bit hurting still. and yes i reiterate, i'm feeling high. head feels light. i'm not fit for driving but i went out and came back yes. and just now when i was making a turn at a corner i grind the rear wheel on the kerb slightly. no damage. just scrape the tyre rim metal bits. no biggy. but i got abit of a shock from it. scare liao. dowan accident.

my head is filled with work work work. the music stuff, web stuff. and unfortunately the kindergarten webmaster job i sent a resume for 1mth ago came abit too late. if not i would rather have it over the transcribing any day. i gotta continue my work and hand in the next few pieces as soon as i can. so i can settle it one side at least, and concentrate more on my webdev. i wanted to experiment with and learn abit of PHP. but it stopped short when i started the transcribing.

i don't mean to blame my parents. they did try to help when my cousin recommended me for this. i chose to do it myself too. but their pressuring tactics on me to get a job and not to spend money i haven't earned is just getting on my nerves. i told them i decided i'll stay with them in future even after (if) i get married to keep them company. but at this rate they are nagging so often at me on what i do constantly even at this age no wonder people rather move out on their own. they mean well. of course they do. all parents do. sad to say i'm the kind who doesn't like to be told that i'm wrong with all the other bullshit reasons. no disrespect, but my mum usually starts off telling me how worried every time i go out and come home late with the car and how she can't get to sleep thinking if i'm alright out there and finally burst into tears. seems like standard SOP. yea i got attitude. in cantonese there's a saying "the more you press the more shit comes out". describes one's personality. that's me. i don't take well to the hard approach. soft approach is ok with me, even though i know it's being applied as a tactic on me.

so unless i'm in a good mood and you are somebody that i dun wish to offend because i give a damn about how you feel, if you give me an ultimatum on something, i won't cooperate. let's just say if a robber wants to take my possessions, i'll rather fight it out with the fella than give it to him. in singapore that is. i might get hurt but i want to hurt the guy. hey if i did it in self-defense i'm fine right? if he kills me or injures me he gets double penalty and they'll get more police to hunt him down even more. grrrrr i'm so full of rage. and i'm still feeling light headed.

*my mind is in utter state of confusion*

*christmas present wishlist top priority: green laser pointer/SoundBug/CD pocket wall decor/thumbdrive*

think i'll head over to grouphug again.