seemed too easy

hrmm i managed to squeeze abt 24 good quality mp3 into the 128MB mmc for my mp3 player kekeke... there's this shiok feeling abt doing that at last. considering i blew abt SGD600 (approx if i convert from JPY) on that damn little device. so my sunday was not all that exciting, but it was alright i guess... went back to camp at night...

this morning when i woke up... i was like... still felt i was sleeping at home! haha then wondering where's that bright window beside my bed gone. nothing much doing today, ie: slacked in camp. afternoon popped over to emart. after purchasing the "limited stock" sandals, i found that my credits were actually more than what I remembered. apparently the system pumped more credits into my account possibly due to the last 4mths of my service. hehehe... so i bought the new duffel bag too. it comes with 2 wheels to drag on the floor, totally black and has carrier handles for sling and hand carry. definitely bringing it to aussie. imagine i had to lug it from simei (ACS dropped me off there, can't complain much ahha) to paya lebar mrt, cross an overhead bridge, board the bus home, and lug it up the slope of the hill. urgh it's jus plain heavy with all the stuff i had inside.

okay so A1 re-add-ed me in friendster. glad to hear... she's found someone. i think. not that i'd wanna probe to confirm that. yet. so hence i guess i've been forced to conclude on the fact that the matters of the heart is not as easy to overcome as it seems. who's to say she's wrong in fighting for her own happiness if she ain't getting any?

i must confess, these days despite going out with friends here and there and everywhere... it's just plain lonely sometimes. i figure i've this flaw in my character. i'm kinda over-possessive+manipulative+control freak. that's scary, right? let's just wait and see. when i fly away, will i have changed? when i return to sg, will i have changed even more? when i'm back and with a stable job, will everyone have changed? will there be anyone here for me? we'll see...

it's back again. the heart+gut wrenching feeling that's indicating this never-departing sorrow in me. nevertheless, i'd wish A1 all the best. having no wish to make her go berserk or whatnot irritated, i suppose it'll be best to refrain from contacting her too much. maybe the occasional hi's and byes online. the once in a blue moon crappy sms joke. shouldn't be thinking abt her anymore. esp not when she's with someone else. best of luck.